Where there is noise I can't think and where I can’t think I am free. I am starting to understand. I can allow my body to rest and I let the Hum take my mind and I do nothing for the first time in a long time. It's meaningless. How beautiful. There is so much all at once and nothing means anything and I want to understand all of it. I understand why the disciple loves the Hum. I understand why She loves me. I understand that it is my time to enter the machine and leave my old life behind. I am so excited.