03.05.24
I’m scared. I don’t remember writing that last post. There’s a hum inside of me, like when you think it’s quiet but it’s not really because all the lights are on. I can’t tell if it’s in my heart or my ears or my stomach. I want it out of me. When I close my eyes it doesn’t go dark. All the lights and screens are still there, going blue like stars falling towards me. I’ve been walking through the forest barefoot. Bugs crawl on my toes. The hum won’t leave. Sometimes I think I should grab a live wire and let all the electricity run through me, embrace me. Please help me. Please tell me how to get It out of me.